12 months being single, a year in review.
The last relationship I was in came to an end almost exactly a year ago. I had spent the year previous to that relationship single also but I hadn’t learnt anything about myself. I hadn’t in that year got over the previous girlfriend so I should never have moved on to another. So I was potentially facing the last break up with horrible memories of the one before as well.
12 months ago I vowed not to make that mistake again. I didn’t have the energy to deal with everything I had done wrong with ghosts of girlfriends past all at the same time, during one big kitchen floor reset. This is when you find yourself uncontrollably crying whilst sitting on a cold kitchen floor gazing at an open fridge packed full of single man food and alcohol.
Everything after a break up becomes a challenge, you’ve forgotten who you are or were, the simplest things you’ve been doing for years suddenly reflect differently.
The first few sessions of self pleasure are particularly difficult, it’s entirely possible to cry during masturbation. In fact after a particularly bad break up it can be a real tear jerker!
So what to do… Spend a year avoiding any intimate meetings. Believe it or not I’ve had a few dates. Which by the time things had started going really well I sabotage it by calling it a night and ending the evening with a firm handshake and a thank you. And if I’m honest, and I am, I have never been happier. I feel like I’ve let everything go. From the previous two relationships to the last ten years of being a bit of a dog of a man. It’s really cleansing for the soul. If I have one that is. Sometimes even I’m not sure.
‘When is the right time to break-up with yourself’?
I have no idea. Do I like being my own significant other to much? So much so that I disregard perfectly good dating options. It’s always possible.
Hell I’m not even sure what women are looking for nowadays. And even if I found out, I guarantee I’d be to stubborn to change myself for it.
Women love men with a sense of humor. It’s just a shame for me that a lot of women find half a million pound in the bank really funny.
No I think what I’ll do is just sit and patiently wait. I’m really happy with the way things are going at the moment. I see no need to break up with myself.
It’s going to take a pretty amazing woman to come between me and myself.